Tonight, is the night of pain. We are close to the edge of breaking up. And my heart is hurting tremendously. I'm so confused and in a dilemma of sacrificing and getting hurt while waiting or you, or to just end it all. They say Love is everything. It prolly isn't. Thinking about our separation just brings tears to my eyes. I cannot even say the things that I want to say to you before I part through whatsapp:; so here it goes:
Hey babe, thanks for loving me. Thanks for putting up w my whinyness. Thank you for showing me what's life. Thanks for being my bf. thanks for giving in to me. Thanks for protecting me from the pain. Thanks for letting me sleep on your lap. All these I couldn't say it out loud. But I appreciate them all. Honestly I didn't know how long our rs would last when we first started out, all I knew was just that we could last as long as we could. But day by day, I learn to grow to love you more and more, I learn about you and your habits, i learn to mature and be independent. Believe it or not, every single date that we've been out, I have never forgotten them. From the most minute to the biggest I've always remembered them. Those will really be kept right in my heart. From ice cream dates, from forgetting to say grace, from each and every movie, to each meal at ehub.laughing at you when we sang duet Tgt. I can remember them. So babe, I wanna tell you that I never stopped loving you though it was very difficult and hard on me. I continued to love and sacrifice. And now it's the end. Thanks for accepting me as your Gf, I know I wasn't perfect and your type at first, but you still accepted me for ME. And that's one thing I love you so much for. You see the interior and exterior side of me. I love you and your fam so much, but I guess this is the beginning of our ending. so ba,as what we used to sing to as a duet, this will be the last dedication to you:
Chest to chest, nose to nose
Palm to palm, we were always just that close
Wrist to wrist, toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us?
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart on me, my California king
Eye to eye, cheek to cheek
Side by side, you were sleeping next to me
Arm in arm, dusk to dawn with the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
Chest to chest, nose to nose
Palm to palm, we were always just that close
Wrist to wrist, toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us?
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart on me, my California king
Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
California wishing on these stars
For your heart on me, my California king
Xoxo, Rccy
