What I fear the most...

It's been such a long time since I've pinned down my thoughts. And now is the time for it. When I usually ask ppl what do you fear of the most, they'll usually reply me w being scared of insects, ghost or even the most minute things. When in turn I'm asked the same question, I would reply that I'm afraid of snakes and spiders.
Tonight I really thought it through and realised that my previous answers were an instinctual reply. But now I realised that what I fear the most is something intangible, something that I cannot control.

What I fear the most is...
Change.
Change is arbitrary where it is the only constant. Change is unforeseen. Change is unpredictable. And for me change is one of the things that I cannot help but dread. All I want is status quo.
You might be amused by my level of immaturity and naiveness. But just looking over my shoulder looking at my dad pacing and looking at my brother and then standing outside the toilet looking at me.. I can't help but wonder how long ever since I was once so close to my parents as children. I miss being a child. I miss the times I've gone out on the car on family days and even have meals. Looking from the perspective of my dad, I sigh at the thought of how fast I've grown and changed. At the blink of an eye, the culprit of change is back to teleport you into another stage in life. Yes no doubt, I hate change, though it's inevitable and good.
This is to the future me when I'm 30 years old:
Treasure the NOW
Do things without Regret. Persevere and bring glory to God.
XOXO